This Version The first version of Shi no Yume: Dreams of Death is called Sweet Shinigami. The layout was designed by my best friend Kauru. The two in the picture at the top are Tsuzuki and Hisoka, my two favorite characters from Yami no Matsuei. Weblogs Kauru-chan - One of my best friends. Kawaii blog! Wonderful graphics! Maryam - One of my best friends' blog. Eugene - I don't know... you might hate this guy's guts... Sherry - Pretty layout... I like her. She reminds me of... me. Links K & K's Collective - Kauru and my site. Visit it, I dare you... Bishounen Paradise - Kauru's Community/Club All About Me Name:Keiko Yuu Age:16 Birthday:3.23.85 If anyone wants to send me a present... Favorite Color:Blue, almost any shade. The only reason this blog isn't blue right now is cos I haven't had time to make a new layout yet. Interests:Books, anime/manga, art, and many others. Zodiac:Aries Element:Fire Loves:Pretty things, sleeping, my cat, listening to music, sleeping, drawing, reading, sleeping, duets, algebra, did I mention sleeping? Hates:Getting dirty, tests, people who nag, politics, non-fiction, daddy-long-legs. Current... Manga:Hunter X Hunter, Yami no Matsuei, DNAngel, Gravitation, Petshop of Horrors, Tokyo Babylon. Anime:Digimon (oh shut up...), Yami no Matsuei, um... Gravitation. Books:The Ill-Made Mute, Kushiel’s Dart. Music: Gackt, W-inds Waiting for:1)The new library to be finished so I don’t have to walk so far from home anymore. 2)The Captal’s Tower by Melanie Rawn, the conclusion to the Exiles series. 3)My allowance. Looking forward to:School (in a twisted way...), my art class every Saturday, Winter Vacation (cos my mom says we might go visit relatives). Favorite... Manga:Yu Yu Hakusho, Hunter X Hunter, Yami no Matsuei, Petshop of Horrors, Mobile Police Patlabor, RG Veda, Ranma ½, Inu-Yasha. Anime:Vision of Escaflowne, Gundam Wing, Fushigi Yuugi, Digimon, Yami no Matsuei, Cardcaptor Sakura, Kodomo no Omocha. Couplings:Touma/Seiji (*dreamy sigh*), Kurama/Hiei (they’re perfect for each other), Heero/Duo (very dynamic), Chichiri/Tasuki (awww...), Yamato/Taichi (*another dreamy sigh*), Daisuke/Ken (mmn...), Yasha/Ashura (*sniff* so sad...), Noa/Asuma (Kawaii~~!!), Sakura/Syaoran (I know they’re a bit young...), Shinji/Rei (I can hope, can’t I?), Van/Hitomi (alas, it is not to be...), Lantic/Hikaru/Eagle (shut up, just shut up...), Sorata/Arashi (Sorata was so devoted...), Satsuki/Yuuto (I bet the damn computer killed Yuuto cos it was jealous.), Tenchi/Ryoko (I’m pretty sure they ended up together). Ice Cream Flavor:Mint Chocolate Chip. Food:Anything Chinese, spaghetti, pizza, roast beef sandwich on light rye with everything except tomatoes and with extra onions and mustard. ^_^ CHOCOLATE POCKY STICKS ALL THE WAY!!! Pastime:Sleeping or reading. Time of Day:From 11:00pm to 6:00 am. Words:Esoteric, mystical, nocturne, dark. Music:Classical and J-rock. Bands:Glay, Savage Garden, The Brilliant Green, Two-Mix, Legolgel. Singers:Gackt, Sakamoto Maaya, Kotani Kinya. Seiyuu:Seki Tomokazu, Toshihiko Seki, Ogata Megumi. Songs:"Missing You", "Asrun Dream", "Oasis", "Kuroi Tsubasa", "September Rain", "Glaring Dream", "Jikuu Ryouku", "Melody", "Yubiwa", "Rhythm Emotion", "To the Moon & Back", "Crash & Burn", "Gravity". Anime Songs:"Eden", "Wild Wind", "Aoi Jiyuu Shiroi Nozomi", "Wild Wind Boys", "Cruel Angel’s Thesis", "Velvet Underworld", "Beautiful Alone", "Tokimeki no Doukasen", "Butterfly", "Kaze". More Than You Ever Wanted To Know Must have been a sloth in my past life. Want to be a sloth again in my next life. My first anime love:Shiryu from Saint Seiya (I was only 4 at the time ^_^;;) My current anime love:Ishida Yamato. I'm a sucker for:Red hair (real red hair, not dyed) and silver hair. According to Select Smart I am: Date Seiji or Hashiba Touma - YST(wild victory dance) Ken - Digimon (I thought so...) Takaishi Takeru or Ishida Yamato - Digimon (whoa, brothers...) Owner of Crests of Reliability, Courage, and Friendship - Digimon (my first three) Chichiri or Tasuki - FY(Wow, both my favorite characters) Kurosaki Hisoka or Tatsumi Seiichirou - YnM(Yep, I’m a miser... ^_^;) Hiragizawa Eriol - CCS(Woo hoo!) Li Syaoran or Yue - CCS(Wow, all the coolest guys...) Duo Maxwell - GW(Yata! Though I wasn’t really surprised.) Van Fanel or Folken Fanel - Tenkuu no Escaflowne (brothers again... what is it with me?) Ryoko or Yosho - Tenchi Muyo(Finally a girl!) Kishuu Arashi or Nataku - X/1999 (anther girl!) Quotes "A women with a mole in the pathway of her tears is destined to have a life full of them." - Kaji, Neon Genesis Evangelion. "Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki, Yami no Matsuei. "Compared to her, I was better looking, I was better at everything than she was, I loved...I loved him more than she did... I never understood. Why did Alexander not love me, but loved Isabel instead...?" - Vampire woman, Petshop of Horrors. "The immortal tribe that never ages, never dies, forever searches, forever yearns, for the last hope, the blood of Count D that holds the eternal promis of ‘death’..." - Dracula Chapter, Petshop of Horrors "Everything that I am, is now yours." - Ashura-oh, to Taishakuten, right before he dies, RG Veda. "You who dares to break taboo, who awakens me from my slumber, who pulls me from the deep abyss of sleep. Brave and foolish man. Thanks to you, this world will become a flaming hell. My name is... Ashura." - Black Ashura, to Yasha, RG Veda. Genral Links Anipike - THE place to find links on your favorite anime and manga. Pitas - I love pitas ^_^ Wishlist 1. Mobile Police Patlabor manga by Masami Yuki (yep, the entire 30-some volumes!) 2. DSL 3. Cardcaptor Sakura manga 4. A new violin 5. Money!

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Saturday, September 8, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: "Butterfly" - Wada Koji, Digimon Adventure Mood: numb... God I have soooo much homework... =_= Yeah, That's why I feel so numb. Been doing nothing but homework all week. The worst is from AP Government. I have to take so many notes from my reading...:( now I know what Maryam went through last year. My other homework's pretty interesting though, especially AP Statistics hw. Math Analysis is boring and dumb, though. I don't think I'll like it very much. My mind draws a blank. I don't know what to say, what to update. I don't really want to update K&K, cos I have nothing to update it with. Haven't been online all week. Haven't even checked email. Just concentrating on getting my work done. Kinda slacked off today, though, that's why I'm here right now. I thought that this blog might replace my journal, if I updated it too much, but now I see that I could never reveal secrets about myself on this blog, while in my journal I can tell anything and everything. I bought a blue journal recently. Lovely paper texture, perfect for a pen (I'm trying to get into the habit of journaling by pen). The cover is a beautiful shade of blue (notice my obsession with blue, the color of sadness?), and has a nice picture of a moon and a sun in the center. My old journal served me for two years, but I felt that I never got anything truly important said in it, except towards the latter third. I suppose I concentrated on too much of daily happenings at times, leaving out the important things like how my thoughts progresses, how I change. Even so, I can still see that over the course of two years, my first two years in high school, I've changed a great deal. I suppose I like this change, even if I don't generally like any changes. I expect this new journal to last me less than a year. It's not that it's small, it's just that I tend to write a lot at once, even if I don't log regularly. I'm not sure what I can use this blog for anymore. It was nice for a while to update regularly, having relay debates/arguments with Kauru via our separate blogs, but now everyone's busy with work, and there's really not much to tell anymore. I see that Maryam pours out her troubles over her blog, but I'm not wont to do that. Too many people sees this blog for me to pour out my heart. Hmm, maybe it's time to archive, eh? Thinking up a new quote would do me good, I suppose. I just hope it won't be a depressing one. It'll come to me, eventually. Keiko slept at 08:08 p.m. Monday, September 3, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: {none} Mood: Depressed-perky-reflective... Why am I depressed? Cos I've been reading too many sad love stories lately. I mean, The Ill-Made Mute, Tokyo Babylon... Ok, ok, so Tokyo Babylon wasn't really a love story. But still, what happened to Subaru was inhumane. The person he loved most was killed by the other person he loved most. That's just tragic. And there was the whole bet thing with Seishiro, which he (unfortunately) lost. Imagine being told by the one you love that you had been betrayed and in the same breath being told that they didn't feel anything for you... Ugh... gives me a headache just thinking about it. Now I understand why some people don't like Clamp works. Tokyo Babylon isn't one of their best works, but it was still kinda good in a sad, twisted way... Thank god Subaru and Seishiro's story continues in X/1999... but wait, doesn't everyone except Kamui die in that series? Argh! Clamp is horriblely homicidal towards their characters! Speaking of X/1999, I was rereading it, and I noticed that almost all of the Seven Seals and the Seven Harbringers were either in love with each other, or in love with one of the enemy... Yuuto/Satsuki (they seemed to really like each other), Subaru and Seishiro (the whole love-hate relationship from Tokyo Babylon), Sorata and Arashi, Karen and Seichiro, Yuzuriha and Kusanagi... yeah that's about all I'm willing to talk about. I'm not going over to the whole Kamui/Fuma thing... or the Fuma/Nataku thing... or the Fuma/Kakyou thing... there's even something fishy with the way Seishiro acts around Fuma... ewww... Seishiro and Fuma... ewwwwwwwww... Okay I'm done ^_^ Ack! Gotta go do AP-Gov. homework! Keiko slept at 04:12 p.m. Sunday, September 2, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: "Kuroi Tsubasa" - The Brilliant Green Mood: Quiet... kinda sad Dear other half of my soul, how thou breakst my heart... Keiko slept at 02:26 a.m. Saturday, September 1, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: "Spirit Dreams Inside" - L'Arc~en~Ciel Mood: Still tired... Romanji "Yami'iro no PENKI wo buchimake subete oo'u totemo kurai hi Yureru watashi no kuroi hane ga sono kioku wo yami e to kesu wa Mayoi wo shiranu tsuyoi kaze ga yabureta ai nado fukitobasu wa Baby onegai sono mama furimukanaide Takai ki no eda ni itoshii kage miokutte ita Koi yo sayonara to kuchizuketa kono ryoute ga furuete iru wa Chiisana amagumo wo hirogete kakushite minikui kono namida wo Inazuma yo kon'ya watashi no tanjoubi ni arawarete Douka kono kuroi tsubasa wo ubatte hoshii" Enlish Translation "It told of a paint the color of darkness, that gloomy day that enveloped all. Trembling, my black wings banish that memory into the darkness. I blow away this love that the strong, unwavering wind has broken. Baby please, don't turn around. I sat on the branch of a tall tree and watched the shadows of my passion pass. I kissed love goodbye; these two hands are shaking. Spreading a small raincloud, I try to hide my ugly tears. Lightning appears tonight, on my birthday. I hope somehow it will steal away my black wings." - "Kuroi Tsubasa", The Brilliant Green Keiko slept at 10:48 p.m. Saturday, September 1, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: "Spirit Dreams Inside" - L'Arc~en~Ciel Mood: tired, but happy Yucka! So much homework! Oh well, I've almost finished all of my Math Analysis hw, so I have the whole next week to do other stuff. AP-Government's the hardest right now, cos I have to take notes on absolutely anything and everything. I haven't even started AP-Statistics homework. -_-; Oh yeah, my neighbor, this senior guy, is in my Stat class too, but since I never talked to him before, I don't think I can ask him for help if I need it. It'd be nice to have help so near at hand, though. Ooooh, oooh, guess what I found at Ranch 99 today. *drumroll* A Yami no Matsuei cd!! Yay! *wild victory dance* It's the second OST cd, called "Amethyst no Hitomi". It has a lot of beautiful screen caps from the TV series. Too bad it doesn't have "Eden" by To Destination. It only has the instrumental version. It also has the exotic version of "Amethyst Remembrance". I don't know why they call it exotic version. It's only the song with a guitar background instead of whatever it was before. It's still nice though. I found out that part of the lyrics to "Amethyst Remembrance is actually the words to the poem "I Held a Jewel in My Fingers" by Emily Dickinson. Surprise, surprise. Here are the lyrics: "I held a Jewel in my fingers And went to sleep The day was warm, Ah winds, winds were prosy I said, I said "Twill keep" I woke - and chid my fingers, The Gem was gone in my hands And now, and Amethyst remembrance is all I own. *Go from me! Yet I feel that I shall stand Henceforward in thy shadow. Go from me!" *repeat Well... it's not too bad. I like the song, anyhow. I've been downloading and listening to L'Arc~en~Ciel lately, and I really like some of their songs. I especially like "Spirits Dreams Inside", which is supposed to be from the Final Fantasy movie. The lyrics are all in English, so it's easy to understand. ^_^; Here are selective lyrics from "Spirits Dreams Inside": "I wake from a nightmare now, In the day it haunts me. It slowly tears me apart, With dreams of a distant love... Somewhere in the wasteland, I see you smiling at me. A vision out of my dreams. Will everything change? Take the pain away, Lead me with your light... Heading for the sun Leave the sadness behind Crossing oceans dry... My world spinning out of time Won't somebody stop me? I may be losing my way Will you make it right? Take the pain away Hear me as I cry Heading for the sun Leave the sadness behind Crossing oceans dry Deep inside I go Spirit dreams inside..." I like this song... I really do. I particularly liked the first stanza and the section "Take the pain away, Hear me as I cry." it's rather depressing though. Hmm... I think Maryam will like this too, though maybe for different reasons. Haha, when I mention L'Arc en Ciel to Kauru, she thought I said "What's on sale?" LOL, funny. Ugh, I think I should quit violin soon. It's killing my love of music. I like listening and playing the violin, but sometimes my teacher is just so... so... eh, I don't know, but I don't enjoy violin anymore, especially since I'm not in an orchestra anymore. Keiko slept at 09:35 p.m. Friday, August 31, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: {none} Mood: {none} *sigh* I really am no good at art when it comes to making my own stuff... or editing pictures. Just looking at my random ideas right now makes me want to weep. Keiko slept at 11:58 p.m. Friday, August 31, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: {none} Mood: So tired... =_= Must...blog...before...eyes...close...of...own...voilation...*falls over keyboard* No, I think I can hold on to consciousness for another few minutes. I'm up to the nose in work. I think I'll keel over before the end of next week. Too much homework from all my classes. Thanks heavens most of them are due next week. Ok, have to stop talking about school. It's getting too depressing to think about. Not to mention I'll get an ulcer if I keep on worrying about the number of homerwork assignments I have. I've wracked my brain for a drop of inspiration to use to think of a name for my next layout, but I still haven't come up with anything yet. I mean, I experienced inspiration when I thought of the name for this layout "Shi no Yume" and when I helped Maryam with her blog. But all I could come up with for my Touma Seiji layout was "Sora to Hikari no Tenshi" (Angels of Sky and Light) but I don't like the fact that there are Digimon names in there... so scratch that. Besides, it's too long. I'm considering "Yume no Tobira" (door of dreams) since that's a excerpt of "Cool Moon" lyrics. But, it doesn't make any sense together with the picture I'm planning to use. So, cancel that too... Maybe "Ite to Kenjutsushi" (Archer & Swordsman) but it's too much of a mouthful... -_-; I need some name that would go alone with the theme of my two favorite characters, something's that's beautifully depressing, and something that I can use with any picture of Touma and Seiji... I guess I can always fall back on "Cool Moon", because after all, it is the song title... Well... I guess "Cool Moon" it is... Would that make it "Tsuki no Tsumetai"? Or "Tsumetai Tsuki"? Okay, blue background... ugh... I hate this... it's taking more effort than I expected to come up with a decent color. Keiko slept at 11:23 p.m. Wednesday, August 29, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: {none} Mood: alert First day of school was okay as first days go. My mom woke me up at around 6:45 (I thought it was 6:00), and I just lay in bed for 15 minutes, thinking that it was nice to wake up slowly. After a while, I bothered to reach out my hand and grab the clock to see what time it was. It was 7:00. The first thought that came to my head was "Oh shit!", since I had to go get my schedule at 7:30, and I had less than 15 minutes to get ready. Fortunately, I didn't need to take a shower (imagine how long that woulda taken...), so I was ready at 7:15 (my mom was still in bed, lucky her). I swung by Maryam's house, and we went to get our schedules. The lines weren't very long when we got there, so when they started passing out the schedules, we got ours quickly. Maryam's classes are completely screwed up. The school gave her classes that she had already taken in her freshman AND sophmore years. Since the counselors refuse to see anyone for at least two weeks, we all had fill out a request form, those of us who had messed up schedules. I got the classes I needed, but I had no 1st period, and the class that I wanted for 1st period was my 3rd period class. What am I suppose to do during 1st period until my classes get changed? I already got the rest of my schedule from Independent Studies on Monday, so I'm all set. A lot of my friends were really surprised that I only had 3 classes in my schedule, until I told them I was in I.S. My first class, Orchestra, was full of freshmans and returning sophmores. I only saw a few returning seniors, and only a handful of returning juniors like myself (not that there were many to begin with). Since there are so many freshman, I'm worried that there might be someone who's really good at violin, who'll get a really good seat and push some of us violinists to the back. Phyllis is especially worried, since she hadn't practiced all summer (she went to France) and had a good chance of losing her seat as concert master. I don't think so though, usually incoming freshmans aren't all that good at violin. The only ones standing a chance of beating her are Aaron (freshman, but returning), Elliot (returning), me (I'm happy with second seat, though), and perhaps Tami (senior). I hope I don't get pushed to the back as well, since I like my seat and would like to stay there. It would be embarrassing if I got pushed back by some hotshot freshman. I went downtown during the first period that I didn't have, and was nearly late in coming back for second period, which, for me, was AP-Statistics. Rushing into the classroom, I nearly died when I saw how many seniors there were. They practically filled the entire room. Nowhere did I see a familiar face. I should have expected that though. Usually juniors don't take that class. Anyway, I already knew my teacher Mr. Weitz because I proctered for him last year. He told me to sit anywhere so I walked past him to look for a seat. Guess who I saw?... I looked at the cluster of tables closest to me that had a spare seat, and I saw Henry, this other junior I knew from middle school. Henry was in my AP-Chemistry class last year, but we don't talk much to each other. (Shut up! Maryam! I know what you're thinking and it's NOT true!) Anyway, it was either sit at the table with Henry and this other guy I didn't know (I recognize him from last year; he's cute. ^_^), or sit at a table with a whole bunch of huge seniors (it seems like all the seniors in that class was really tall or big). I decided to sit with Henry, him being the only person I knew there. (SHUT UP MARYAM!!) Henry asked me why I was taking this class, and we talked a bit, but I was uncomfortable with talking to him, cos I've never done so before. I mean, Henry's like...Seiji... yeah, I know I'm comparing a real person to an anime figure, but it's the closest comparison I can come up with. It's not easy to talk to him if you don't know him that well. I was able to find out that he was taking AP-American Government in 1st period (the only other class I'm taking at school and I had wanted 1st period for it), and that we'd received a one page writing assignment (Oh joy...). I looked around the room and was able to recognize only one other person I knew vaguely, this amazing bassist from my orchestra last year (his name eludes me for the moment). I was surprised because I thought he'd graduated last year. Keiko slept at 02:02 p.m. Tuesday, August 28, 2001"Imagine the darkness, in love with the light..." Music: {none} Mood: excited School starts tomorrow. A new school year, a new beginning, for this page, that is. ^_^ I have this wonderful layout in my head that I want to use for the winter, but I still need to type all the damn html up. Now, if only I had Microsoft Frontpage... Kauru has the software, but I don't know when I'll see her again. We live too far apart for me to visit her on a regular basis. ;_; Oh well. Christmas, perhaps ^_^; Hmm. Kauru's always getting new hair cuts. It's like her hair grows super fast or something. Me, I'd never cut my hair more than once in 3 years. I like my hair to much to hack it all away. *shudder* Besides, I've had to live with boyishly short hair for most of my childhood, and I'm not too thrilled to repeat that experience anytime soon. Anyone who's lived my life will understand why I'm so unwilling to cut my hair. My hair's almost like my only pride and joy (of all of my features, that is). Kauru blogs too little, Maryam blogs too much... Maryam needs to get over Jon. "I think someone's trying to tell me to be happy." Duh! Everyone's trying to tell you that! I hope school will cheer her up a bit. She'll see all her friends again. I was rereading RG Veda last night, and I found this nice quote that I'd like to use as a heading next time. It's what Black Ashura repeatedly tells Yasha, the one he's destined to kill: "You who dares to break taboo, who awakens me from my slumber. Who pulls me from the deep abyss of sleep. Brave and foolish man. Thanks to you, this world will become a flaming hell. My name is... Ashura." *pauses to think* Ok, maybe that's not such a great quote to use... Keiko slept at 03:05 p.m.