Tuesday, August 28, 2001 02:59 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
I'm beginning to see my next layout in my head, but I'm still having a hard time deciding on a picture for the top part. Oh well, time to archive.
Monday, August 27, 2001 08:07 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Selectsmart quiz said that I was like Hyoga from Saint Seiya... Shiryu came in second. I'm surprised. I mean, Hyoga? Blondie? Sweet, nice person with a rose? That's not really me... And his Cloth symbol is a Swan... I don't like swans. I don't even like birds! And I've never had anything in common with blondie anime guys before. I have an aversion to most blonde anime guys. I mean, I stay as far away from Nakago as I can, wouldn't you? And Quatre is just too nauseatingly sweet. Touma (from Gravitation) is just pure evil with an angel's face. Yamato's the exception though. Him, he's perfect. I've noticed that every selectsmart anime quiz I take, I always end up with my favorite characters as #1 in personality. I like Shiryu best from Saint Seiya. He's the first memory of anime that I have. I don't even remember Hyoga...XP Oh well, at least Shiryu was second.
I've noticed that most of my favorite characters are somewhat... suicidal... Either that or they get tortured a lot or something bad happens to them. I mean, look at Kurama. Out of the entire Urameshi team he's the one who always makes sacrafices and loses a lot of blood. Hiei DIED! Of course, he came back to life, but still. Touma got sent into space in a deep sleep, and almost never came back. Seiji gets captured (and most likely gets tortured, hanging there). The first time we meet Hisoka, he gets kidnapped by Muraki and is bleeding all over the place when Tsuzuki finally arrives to save him. Tsuzuki has the whole past with the violet eyes and persecution. Chichiri has the scar and his sad sad past. Tasuki has... um... Tasuki gets... um... Oh yeah! Tasuki gets beaten up (really badly) by Evil Tamahome. Yamato has his loneliness and his feelings (jealousy, hate, love, etc.)for Tai eating at him, which does hell for his consciece. Tai gets beaten up often as the "Fearless Leader". Ashura... well... need I say anything about any Clamp characters? *smirk* Clamp is especially homocidal towards their characters, so everyone either gets killed, stuck with a tragic past, or gets tortured to a point of no return. Rei views everyday and every moment as her last ("Sayonara"). Shinji doesn't really care about his life. Van and Folken has the curse of the Dragon Clan. Heero is ever suicidal, and Duo's no help with his "Watashi wa Shinigami!" gig. Oh yeah, if I'm suppose to be like these characters, does that mean I have suicidal tendancies too? *pauses to reflect* Er... I refrain from comment...
Monday, August 27, 2001 08:04 a.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Hey, I just have a bright idea. Okay maybe it might sound stupid to you... Anyway, I was just reflecting on the overall color of this layout: green, and I was thinking about how blue would be such a better color (minus the pic of course) since my favorite color is blue and blue is such a suitable color for winter (and dreariness... no, that's gray), and I thought to myself: "Since green is a good color for the summer, and blue is a good color for the winter, maybe I should change the layout every winter and spring or something like that." I mean... sunflowers (nods at picture at top) just isn't very winterish...
Speaking of flowers... I took a flower personality test... and it said I was a rose...*quietly reflects on that* well... I always thought that a rose was... rather... well... not for me. But hey, it's believable, I guess. Thorns at least make sense... *shrug* Oh well, now there's one more thing in common between me and Kurama *laughs* My second flower personality was Queen Anne's lace. I have no idea what that looks like, but I have a vague impression that it's blue... which suits me just fine. My third is magnolia... *recoils* Magnolia?! What the hell?! I hate magnolia! Then it's violet, then lily of the valley, then marigold, orchid, daisy, dandelion, and hibiscus... damn, the list just gets weaker and weaker... well, I like the idea of the first two, so I guess I'm happy *mutters under breath* Magnolia indeed...
Monday, August 27, 2001 07:49 a.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Why oh why was I born a human? I'm really more suited to be an animal. Something that hibernates, perhaps? Just eat and have fun in the summer, and sleep away the cold in the winter... oh that sounds absolutely fabulous. Animals are so nice cos they have fur to keep them warm. Humans? We humans have pink hairless skin and have to go to school or work for most of our lives. Life sucks as a human. I was duly reminded of that an hour ago when I went to take a shower and there was no hot water... and I was reminded that my house lacks in hot water in the winter, and was also reminded of just how early I'd have to get up when school starts. Agh. So from now on, it's gotta be early to bed and early to rise.
And that really sucks, seeing as I'm a nocturnal person. I'm half dead during the day, but I become more alive at night. Ugh I want my beauty sleep... but nooooo, in half an hour I have to go pick up my schedule for Independent Studies... Heh heh, it only makes me feel better that Kauru's gotta go stand in line for her schedule at her school too today... ^__^
Sunday, August 26, 2001 01:29 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
I just realized why I can archive this page yet... I haven't thought of a good quote to put at the top of each entry. *thinking, and thinking* I like that quote about gravitation and destiny from Gravitation manga, but I can't remember exactly what it is...
Sunday, August 26, 2001 01:23 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Whoa, I just looked over some my archived entries. I must have been crazy or something... Oh well, time to archive this page! Or maybe I should wait till Wednesday, when school starts... You know, new beginnings.
Sunday, August 26, 2001 01:10 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Whoo hoo! I finished changing the layout! *cheers* Now there's a whole column of stuff on the left side instead of the old boring "This Version..." and "Links". I'm so tired... I spent 3 hours last night typing html... *falls over keyboard and starts snoring*
Friday, August 24, 2001 09:12 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Yeah, I know I haven't blogged in ages... I finished Kushiel's Dart. It was 701 pages. The only way I can describe it is... breathtaking... I thought it was a wonderful book, but I wouldn't suggest it to anyone who's not open-minded. Still, I didn't think there was enough angst. Angst is a requisite for any story I read. I like angst, cos it make a love story a lot better.
Ooooh lordy lordy, school starts next Wednesday...*groans in aggravation* Pretty cool ID tag/chain though...
Argh, I have "Feel the Fate" by W-inds stuck in my head! Damn you Jean! I hate pop music like that! The same melody playing over and over again! I bet Jean's laughing her insane head off right now... Oh, Kauru, if you want my opinion, you should get both the Nakayoshi AND the W-inds thingy. But if you only have money for one, get W-inds, cos it sounds like the better deal.
Tuesday, August 21, 2001 09:41 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
I'm listening to Sakamoto Maaya right now. I haven't heard her songs in a while, and right now I find them particularly relaxing and pretty to listen to.
I just came back from a P/SAT session at Kaplan and I feel really pissed off. It's like no one in my class understand English or something, and they're mostly seniors too. They really need to work on their comprehension skills. A lot of them took forever to answer a question from the teacher. If this class wasn't so beneficial, I would drop it right now. Three hours sitting in a cramped chair in a perpetually freezing room waiting for a student taking forever to answer a simple question is really just a waste of time. >.<
Today I had to go to school to take a picture id. My picture came out okay, but I had to wait in line forever to get my id. This year the school requires everyone to wear their id on a tag. At first I thought it was really dumb (I still do), but now I find that it's not so bad. I like the chain. I went with Maryam, and she couldn't stop laughing when she took her picture (my fault, really), but her picture came out really great anyway. Nothing beats a natural smile, I guess. Some people are just good at taking pictures. I wasn't really looking forward to school, but after seeing some friends there today, the idea of school doesn't seem so bad. We also went to lunch in downtown, and afterwards I bought (well, actually Maryam bought, since she owed me money) a book that I had planned on reading after I finished The Ill-Made Mute (which I finished a few days ago). It's called Kushiel's Dart, and I started on it this afternoon. It's quite fascinating, but I only got to chapter 6 (decently short chapters) before I had to go to Kaplan.
My mom's starting to have doubts about the independant studies program I'm planning to take this year. She says that she worries I won't do my work if I'm left at home by myself. Personally, I agree with her. I don't know how effective my schedule will be if left up to me, which is why I've decided that I'd stick around school after my first few periods, hang out in someone's classroom and do my homework. Hopefully, I'd get at least some work done. Junior year is an important year, after all.
I helped Maryam make her blog yesterday. After messing around with her html for a while, she decided that she'll take my html and change a few things until she can improve her own. We speculated on a possible name for her blog. She wanted something depressing and moody, cos she's been in the dumps lately. I came up with Kuroi Tsubasa, but then we decided on Yami no Yume (Dreams of Darkness)instead, since she wanted something to do with dreams (daydream was already taken). Only today did I realize that it is sister to Shi no Yume, my blog. I really liked Kuroi Tsubasa though, and since Maryam's not going to use it, I think I will. For what, I don't know yet. Let it be known that I claim first dibs on Kuroi Tsubasa. ^_^ I still have to help her on her html so it's not completely like mine (right now it looks like mine from the picture down and with the color blue). I'll get around to it sometime. Eventually...
Sunday, August 19, 2001 08:42 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
So much to do, so little time...
Oooh, ooh, my cousin bought me an entire series of Clamp. I don't know which series it is yet, but he said that there were 7 volumes total, so I'm hoping it's Tokyo Babylon. My cousin's so nice to me, he'd even spend his money to buy stuff for me, and since it's in China, that means he doesn't have much money to spend. ^_^
Sunday, August 19, 2001 01:48 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Damn Kauru... She got W-inds songs stuck in my head. =_=;
Wednesday, August 15, 2001 12:53 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Argh, everytime I rattle off the list of classes I'm taking in the fall, I feel like I'm one step closer to hell. I know I've got to be insane to take two math classes instead of the required one, and one of them is an AP class. In the spring, I'm going to have to take 4 AP exams! I don't think I can take the honors system anymore. It's too much work, and there are much better things for me to do than study all day. Still, I have to give it a try because I don't think I can live it down if I just left the honor system now.
Monday, August 13, 2001 05:42 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
I'm like the three-headed dragon princess from Petshop of Horrors. I still don't know her name yet, but she's a three-headed dragon princess (duh) and she's got three seperate personalities: one calm wise one from contact with Count D, a sweet crybaby-girl one from a little girl that accidentally came into contact with her, and a brash, crazy, half violent one from the last moments with Leon before she hatched out of her egg. Because I'm so much like her in the fact that different aspects of me pop up at different times, I've decided to label the calm side of me Keiko, the nice crybaby Kei-chan, and the 'evil' one Keiko-chan. There, identification complete. Now you'll always know who's in reign over my mind...
Monday, August 13, 2001 12:13 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Whoa, that was a long stroll down memory lane. *nods at early morning entry*. I haven't been this nostalgic since... no scratch that, I'm always nostalgic. Strange, it doesn't seem to run in the family.
Oh, did I mention that besides laying off anime for a while, I've also forsaken J-rock? *anguished cries from inner child, otherwise known as the insane Keiko-chan* Shut up you! *smacks Keiko-chan* So, no music for a while except some wonderful healthy Bach, Tchaikovsky, and Sebelius. No, I don't particularly like Beethoven.
Monday, August 13, 2001 01:58 a.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Today: Got up at noon after much nagging from my mom (she finally had me rolling out of bed by saying that we were going to go watch Rush Hour 2 and she was paying), went to see Rush Hour 2, thought it was good, had late lunch at Original Mels (god the milk shakes there are good!), wasted 1 hour at Kaplan center in downtown, listening to my mom grilling the poor young man at the counter about the SATs, wanted to go see another movie but was too tired and too full(from Mels), so headed back home with Mom. Dropped by Barnes & Noble to see if Melanie Rawn's "The Captal's Tower" was on shelves yet, nope, but found that Tamora Pierce's "Squire" was available. Settled down to read book, then after 2 hours Mom said she wanted to go home. Stayed at B&N to read book, finished book (I read fast), started on another book I had my eye on. It was called "The Ill-Made Mute" by Cecilia Dart-Thornton. New author, only discovered book today. What caught my eye about this book was its cover. That and the gorgeously beautiful paper that made up the cover. Such a nice material for paper... Anyway, only read like 4 pages of that book before Mom came to pick me up at 11 o'clock. I hope I can buy it at Borders, where I still have about 12 dollars on gift card. I can make up the rest with cash. Still, it'd be nice if there was a paperback available. It'd be sooo much cheaper than hardcover.
Hmm... well, that's as normal as my life gets without anime. It's kinda nice to get away from it actually, and get back to the kind of life I lived before I became anime-obsessed. I guess my official infatuation started when Ivy shoved a Ranma book in my face and told me to read it cos it was hilarious. I remember it was vol 8 and I spent the entire time laughing my head off. My mom thought I was going insane or something. ^_^; So, I sought out more of Ranma, and discovered that there were 38 volumes in all. Pretty soon I was taking a vacation in China and I spent about 300 yuan buying the entire series. Meanwhile I hadn't been really interested in any other mangas, but while I was in China (and totally bored at the times my cousin wasn't there to keep me occupied), my cousin tossed my vol 6 of Yu Yu Hakusho. I immediately went completely insane over it, claiming that it was the best series I've ever encountered (I do have past experiences with other series, so my knowledge didn't just include Ranma). So, I looked for YYH in China, and then I looked for it in the US, and finally I read the entire series. YYH was my second official series, and the first time I encountered shonen ai/yaoi. There is one picture in vol6 where Hiei and Kurama are standing together, and I thought they were the best couple I'd ever seen. Later, I discovered the many sites dedicated to the love between the two youkai... From then on, I looked into many other series, some of which I'd encountered in my Ranma fixation period, and others (a lot) in my search for YYH manga. I also saw some VERY old series that triggered a hidden memory. Ranma definitely wasn't my first experience with anime/manga, because I'd been watching Ronin Warriors(my first encounters with Seiji and Touma!), Saint Seiya (I loved Shiryu even as a three-year old...), and even Transformers. I can even remember my cousin playing with Transformer toys and gloating at me because he could make them transform faster than I can (this was actually a memory that resurfaced a few days ago). And of course, who hasn't heard of Sailormoon and Pokemon? It was in China that I was introduced to anime first (at the very impressionable age of 3), so it makes sense that my real interest in anime would be sparked again when I visited China 11 years later. There, through anime magazines I bought, I learned about Fushigi Yuugi, Clamp, and many other rather obscure series that I don't know the Japanese names to. My parents said and hoped that anime was a phase that would pass. Perhaps that was true when I was a toddler, eagerly watching Shiryu training at the waterfall, but didn't the interest just resurface with Ranma and Yu Yu Hakusho? Still, it's nice to take a break from all of this obsession and furious fanfic-writing and worrying about K & K. I find that I'm really just more happy reading a fantasy book, plain text, because it's easier not to drool over the male characters when you don't have a visual of them. Really, drooling directly affects the ability to read a book well. Spending time at the bookstore might seem like a nerdy activity, but the atmosphere there is most relaxing, classical music floating softly in the background (a nice change to the rythmic pounding of J-rock), and despite the lack of seats, it's a place where I could throw myself whole-heartedly into a book like I haven't done in a long time. I remember that before having gotten into anime/manga, I'd spend some of my free time at the bookstore and read my favorite writers. I really like Tamora Pierce, who is a writer for yound readers. Her books are simplely written and rather addicting. Melanie Rawn's unique style of combining just a touch of everything into her fantasy stories is also a favorite. However I only like her Exiles series. I'm just not sure I like the idea of Sunrunners. After all, I've never truly loved the sun. I'm still waiting for The Captal's Tower. Hopefully Cailet and Josselin will get together? I've also read many other authors before, though these two are the ones that stick out in my mind. I'm hoping Cecilia Dart-Thornton will prove to be as wonderful a writer as Rawn. From what little I've read this evening, I already like her style. I just hope that her writing style lives up to my expectations (I've started to compare every author I read to Rawn) and that she would do something nice in regard to the love life of the herione, unlike Tamora Pierce, who tends to set her heriones up with someone who doesn't exactly live up to the reader's expectations. I've already come to terms with Alanna choosing George instead of Jon, since I like George, and I'm glad Daine and Numair stuck together like I hoped they would. However, the Circle of Magic quartet hasn't been the most fulfilling of tales, and neither has the Circle Opens quartet, so far. Mostly because these books were directed at younger readers. However, I'm hoping that THAT will change in The Circle Opens quartet, because after all, there are still two more books to go, and anything could happen. I'm personally aiming for Tris with Briar. No reason, just feels like they get along best, though there have been occasions when it seemed Briar was falling for Sandry. Don't like Sandry, thinks she's a rich noble snob. Yes, I know she's nice as hell, but I just don't like her. I like Tris and Briar a lot more. Anyway, I'm still sour about the fact that Neal almost never showed up in "Squire" and the fact that Kel fell in love with Cleon. Kel's right, she's fickle as hell! Neal was her best friend ever since she went to the palace, and she was always taking care of Neal too, but ever since Cleon took an interest in her, she's been mooning after him. She even had to nerve to fall for Dom, Neal's cousin. It's times like this that I really hate the girlish side of Kel. I really can't understand why Tamora Pierce would just throw Neal away like this, after two whole books. AND Neal's probably in love with Kel's friend Yuki, really in love. I think Tamora Pierce sucks hell at matchmaking. If it weren't for the world she created, I'd stop reading her books altogether. Geez, I really liked Neal! He reminded me of Touma! ^_^ I really hope things improve with the last book in the quartet, though I doubt it, I mean, one book can't change whatever it is the author has ingrilled throughout the first three. *growls in irritation* Tamora Pierce is definitely in danger of losing her seat as my favorite author, though I have a nagging suspicion she's already been uprooted ever since I read Rawn and her wonder Exiles books. I like The Mageborn Traitor better than Ruins of Ambrai though, because I like Cailet better than Sarah. I guess it's like that because I read Mageborn Traitor first. I think Sarah's too snobby.
Ok, I really need to sleep... oh wait, I was originally going to complain that I haven't been able to access the fics on Kissey Faces - SeijixTouma Shrine and I have no idea why. I was looking at them fine yesterday. Argh, stupid links that don't work...
Saturday, August 11, 2001 09:49 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Yes!! I did it! I fixed the stupid layout of this blog! Finally that extra links section is gone! And I got the font color the way I like it too! Of course, it took a couple, ok, a lot of tries, but I have succeeded!! Who da man?! Ok, woman, but the idea's the same! Next: Get rid of all that extra space on both side. All that white emptiness is making me ill.
Saturday, August 11, 2001 08:56 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
God, I can't believe I'm having mood swings outside of PMS... One minute: happy!! next minute: saaaddddd..... next: Spitting mad!! next: drooping depressed...
Saturday, August 11, 2001 08:53 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
*happy grin* I'm gonna name my next cat Nyaasu!! *snicker* Yeah I know that's what they call Meowth in Japanese... *smirk* It's just such a perfect name for a cat! Too bad my current cat's already named.
Saturday, August 11, 2001 08:50 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
Ok, I was wrong, I don't think I can ignore fanfics. But I'm gonna ignore everything else! Swear! Damn, it's hard to find good YST fics to read.
Saturday, August 11, 2001 08:33 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
I think I'll ignore my email for a few days... I'm too tired to deal with updating K&K, even though I promised I'd put up a new fic by the end of this week. Yeah, definitely gonna ignore email, website, AND anime for a while. Just go back to being a normal kid for a few days, read some books, practice my violin, do normal kids stuff, THEN go to Ka-chan's house again to pig out on anime. Maybe I can even get started on that html book, so I can finally make my own layouts? Nah, don't think I can get that far...
Ka-chan's blog looks really good. I swear she has a fixation on the color pink. I swear it's been like her favorite color for ever! But overall, it looks really nice. When asked why the picture in top center is blurred, she replied that they were scanned seperately and she didn't want people to notice that the pics were off! LOL Still, you'd never catch me giving my real name away like that. I thought it was kinda weird how she put up a fake 411 at the top, then a real one right underneath... Oh well, I was at her house yesterday, looking through the links on her blog, and the CCS one was hilarious! It also reminded me that if I don't hurry and make the YST theme (just touma and seiji actually), someone else might go ahead and do it! Or maybe they already have?! O.o
Saturday, August 11, 2001 08:18 p.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
I finally finished this sketch I've been working on in art class today. It's going back to China tomorrow cos my aunts requested an example of my artwork. Sayonara, you piece of crap! I have to admit that I did a good job on the sketch, but I don't like the subject, who's a woman model. I'm glad I won't have to ever see it again. I just hope my relatives don't frame it and put it up on their walls or anything. Flattering, but embarassing.
Thursday, August 9, 2001 12:45 a.m."Let the flames burn brighter, Touda, burn away my eternal life with the dark flames of hell..." - Tsuzuki
I did more work on K & K today, mainly cos I was bored. I wonder how people stumble upon K & K anyway, but they almost never email, so I guess I won't know until Ka-chan makes the guestbook.
I love Yami no Matsuei, but I'm starting to get sick of this layout. As beautiful as the layout and the picture is, it's just way too cheery for me. I'm really more suited to blue, I think. Darker colors. I'm going to start learning html so I can make my own layout for this blog. Something blue, dark blue background maybe, with a picture of Touma and Seiji at the top, with their virtues in kanji as part of the background. I like the borders around the entries, so I might keep that, but I only want the entries aligned to the right, and maybe links and other stuff on the left. Who knows? I really need to learn html first. Then maybe I might even have time to remake all the fanfic pages on K & K, cos I don't like it the way it is. If only I didn't have so many other books I'm supposed to read...
Speaking of books, that exceedly hard book that I'm supposed to read for AP Government class this fall is getting interesting. I guess it was only the intro that had me stumped. I'm starting to think this may not be as hard as I orginally thought it to be. I might even enjoy the book.
