This Version Welcome to the very first version of Shi no Yume (Dreams of Death)! Yata yata! This layout was designed by my best friend Ka-chan and it features the two main characters from Yami no Matsuei, Tsuzuki and Hisoka! *sigh* I love those two...

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Friday, July 13, 2001 02:01 a.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

OH MY GOD!!! Angel Sanctuary is sooooooooo disturbing!! I never thought anything could be be that goth! Eewwwww, yuck, I hate Setsuna's sister!! I can't believe they fell in love with each other! That's like incest!! Why can't Kaori Yuki-sensei put his/her fantastic art skills to something a little more lighthearted? (not to mention shorter with less characters...) I'll bet Count Cain is just as goth as Angel Sanctuary... -_-;...



Wednesday, July 11, 2001 07:10 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I LOVE LEGOLGEL!! I LOVE GLAY!! I LOVE GACKT!! I LOVE TO DESTINATION!! I LOVE THE BRILLIANT GREEN!! I LOVE KOTANI KINYA!! I LOVE LUNA SEA!! I LOVE X JAPAN!! I LOVE WEIB... okay, maybe I don't love WeiB, but I LOVE SEKI TOMOKAZU!!!!! THEY ALL HAVE SUCH GREAT MUSIC AND GREAT SINGERS!!

*Keiko-chan's cat Keiko-chan (yeah her name's Keiko too... ) holds up a sign saying "Beware screaming lunatic fan girl" with an arrow pointing at Keiko-chan (the girl, not the cat)*



Wednesday, July 11, 2001 04:15 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Inari-sama~~~ Can I brush your fur for you? *pause* Eh? Nani? Ahhh!! Matte~~!!! Come back! Inari-sama!!



Tuesday, July 10, 2001 11:56 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Seiryuu-sama! Suzaku-sama! Byakko-sama! Genbu-sama! Inari-sama! Buddha! God! Alah! (notice how I name the amime god first? ^_^ hey, I don't think Inari-sama really exists in YYH, does it? I think someone just made him up in a fic... oh well, I like Inari-sama best anyway) Any god! ChiLing! Help! I've got writer's block on my GW fic!! *all gods fall over* (You'd think it was something life-threatening if I were calling on gods, let alone the ones that don't even exist... ^_^) Hey did you really think I'd go to you guys for anything other than inspiration? I can't count on any of you to gimme a good life, so all you can do is help me plan out fics!. >:O You no good sacrifice-wanting gods! Go sit in the corner! And Inari-sama, stop looking at Suzaku-sama, he's not a chicken, he's a phoenix! You can't eat him! *Inari-sama looks slightly guilty* (Yeah, Inari's a fox god, a youko god, to be more precise)



Tuesday, July 10, 2001 11:49 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

My mistake, there isn't another girl in season 2, I think what I saw was just a reappearance by Sora. So, there were 8 kids in season 1 and only 6 in season 2, is that fair? And 2 of them are from season 1's group, so there's only 4 new kids..., and most of them don't couple up as neatly as season 1 does. There's no way in hell Iori and Miyako would be posssible together. I mean Iori's so small, how'd he get into middle school in the first place? Oh, is he really that old already?! *runs as Iori fans gangs up on her* Wah, I like Iori, I really do! I like all the characters in Digimon, but I don't associate myself with a cat for nothing. I'm naturally curious, so I can probably be mean even to my favorite characters! Look what I'm doing to Tasuki and Chichiri in my current fic! I just killed them in their life in the book! Go read it at K & K!

Ka-chan, you've really gotta blog sometime this week, can't hide forever ya know... I mean, I'm gonna see you on Saturday, so might as well give up.

Gomamon power!! Yeah, I'm still not over my Gomamon obsession... hey, I don't even like water, let alone an ocean, and here you've got a seal-like creature who's turning out to be my favorite digimon...



Tuesday, July 10, 2001 11:28 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I was at Blockbuster, and I saw this plastic Gomamon toy, and it took every bit of strength I had not to grab it and glomp it... ^_^; Yes, Gomamon is my absolute favorite digimon, I love his personality! If I had money on me, I probably woulda bought the toy. It was so cute, even if it was plastic and not as good as the real thing. When I saw it, I froze, and told myself, "Keiko, turn your eyes away or else you won't be able to resist Gomamon's charms." Then I slowly edged away until I was far enough not to be affected by its extreme cuteness. I'm now an avid watcher of Digimon, even if it's badly dubbed in English. I like the fist season the best though, and I think the second season is okay only because the characters from the first season is in it. I'm not sure I want to watch the 3rd season at all, cos it's got all new characters. One thing is common tho. All the leaders of each group always, always, wears goggles... I'm a fan of Taito, the fiery leader matched with the cool and aloof other, and I'm also a fan of Daiken, or Kensuke, which ever it is. You see a pattern there? Taichi is the leader of the first group, Yamato is like his second, cold and aloof, Sora's got the bird, Koushiro the bug, and in the second season, Daisuke is like the leader with his spunk (and note the goggles), Ken's the alone one (not to mention they do that DNA thing with their digimon), Miyako's got the bird, Iori (is that his name?) the bug (well, technically it's not a bug, but it's got those bug wings in the back and it's got Koushiro's digimon flashing in the background while it does that digi armor thingy, so it's close enough...). See, it all makes sense, each digidestined in the second season inherits from someone or two someones in the first season. Iori's got the bug, but he's also like Jyuu in that he's reliable and clearheaded (sorta), so he's a mix between Jyuu and Koushiro, Daisuke's got Taichi's goggles and his digimon's got Agumon flashing in the background while it transforms, Ken's like Yamoto, Miyako's like Mimi and Sora, and Takeru and Hikari are... themselves... Anyway, I think there was another girl later on in the second season, but I can't remember her name, so I might be wrong about Miyako...

Gomamon rules!!! Except when he transforms, then he just looks ugly... Only Agumon and Gabumon look cool in whatever form (hey is it just me or do the two of them transform way more than the others? And Hikari's digimon only changed once in the first season, some things just aren't fair, I tell you, not that I'm complaing about Agumon or Gabumon. Garurumon looks so tight! I wish I could ride on his back like Yamoto does. ^-^).



Tuesday, July 10, 2001 06:23 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I'm almost done with that stupid paper. Yay! I did most of it in one sitting cos I was depressed enough. Yeah, I draw my inspiration from my depression... When I woke up, I wasn't depressed enough, so I watched a movie and then got started. I figure, since I always get depressed after I watch a movie, why not try that? After I check with my teachers tomorrow morning, I'm free for the rest of the week! ^_^ I can worry about new homework next week.

I listened to "Sleepless Beauty" by Nittle Grasper from Gravitation all day long today, just had it on the playlist, playing over and over again. It's an okay song, with a weird beat, but the reason I love it so much is because it has a great melody... when it actually has a melody... The melody is what Ryuuichi-sama-chan sings to pacify the crowd at ASK's concert with Bad Luck as the opening act. That's where Ryuuichi meets Shuuichi. Ryuuchi is soooooo cool!! I love his voice, even if sometimes he's out of tune... I love that melody, but I wish there was a slower version of that song without a crazy beat like it is in "Sleepless Beauty".



Sunday, July 8, 2001 11:28 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Oh, I have the best friends in the world! I couldn't get enough people to do my stupid survey, and my friends are sending it to people they know! So nice! Now, I'm not so stressed out anymore. I can afford to wait another day before writing my stupid paper.

I read 5+ chapters of Dracula today. It's a really good book. I should have read it sooner. Now I can't really put it down until I finish it.

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Ka-chan~~~~... Happy birthday to you! *blows out candles on Ka-chan's behalf* Now, make a wish! (make it something like "Let me watch Tokyo Babylon at my birthday party" cos then I can make that come true... ^_^;;) Hey, hey (hey! Music Champ!!... ok j/k) I want your AIM screen name Ka-chan! Then I can talk to you when I'm online!! ^__^

I finally got around to writing in my journal the other day! Whew, took me 2 hours to update on everything that's happened in two months. 2 months is a long time. I read my last entry and it went something like this: "Yeah, my AP chemistry exam is finally over..." and various other happy thoughts. I was surprised to find myself so happy a while ago, but then I looked at some previous entries and they were all depressing... -_-; typically me...

I've been so content doing sketches in art class. Doesn't seem like me... but it really is fun now just to sketch things, normal things, instead of drawing (ahem... actually, technically it would be copying...) manga. Oh, that reminds me! I'm supposed to be working on manga pictures of me and Ka-chan for K & K! ...oops... another something to go on my to-do list... well, I suppose if I don't work on them Ka-chan might get mad. *thinks for a moment, then shrugs* I'll work on them when I feel like it. Hey, why does Ka-chan always say I'm mean?? And it never sounds like she's joking either...

ooooh, getting a headache again... it happens whenever I'm sitting in front of a screen for too long.



Sunday, July 8, 2001 02:13 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Ugh, summer school sucks! I have to do this project that's due on Wednesday, and it's survey and I hafta get it to at least 25 people and so far I have... *counting...* Ten!! Can you believe it? I'm so dead... Anyway, hafta go back to homework... Argh!! Everything sucks right now!! *going insane with stress* Okay, calming down... ja ne, really hafta get back to work now!



Thursday, July 5, 2001 10:00 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

DAAaaaa... I find myself doing that a lot lately... *sigh* It's not my fault Chichiri's my favorite from FY.

My headache's better, but not entirely gone. I'm sooooo hungry... >_<



Thursday, July 5, 2001 07:02 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I think I'm way too obsessed with Amiboshi and Suboshi... cos everytime I see my cat, I feel like there's supposed to be two of her, like twins...

Ughhh... feel all whoozy and stuff. I had a headache all afternoon. I think that doctor said I'm supposed to massage my head now and then to get the blood flowing... ok, it's not as freaky as it sounds. You know how sometimes people's veins get clogged and blood doesn't flow as well as it should? Well, it's something like that, except it's on my head.

Geez, Ka-chan sure blogs a lot in one day for someone who can't go online as often as she says she wants. Hmmmm... *suspicious look in eye*

Hey, I just noticed today that the main theme for Gravitation is basically a mix between Shuichi's theme and Yuki's theme. Hee hee hee, I feel so smart now. ^_^ OOooooh, Yuki's theme is pretty~~... ok, I feel really sick. Hey! It's "Eden"!! Oooh, it's such a great song! I'm listening to music on Napster. Damn Napster doesn't work with the older versions and the new version supposedly has a bug. *lets loose a string of curses*

Hey, Ka-chan, that girl Hisoka dances with is Tsubaki, who he ISN'T in love with! She DIES!!!! AND she says that he has someone better than her who knows about his past, but cares about him and understands him anyway!! (and they show a picture of Tsuzuki right there! *raspberry*) AND stupid Tsubaki was and always will be in love with Muraki, so take THAT!! Oh, and I forgot to tell you, I'm keeper of Hisoka's feelings for Tsuzuki on the YnM Keeper's List!! Ha! AND, Hisoka runs into Tsuzuki's arms... TWICE!! The second time he decided that he was going to die WITH Tsuzuki if Tsu-chan was going to kill himself!!

Looks like I'm back to my usual crazy self... -_-;;



Wednesday, July 4, 2001 11:06 a.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I feel so much better today ^__^ *dances around bursting with energy* I haven't slept very well lately, cos I had this accursed painting in my room facing my bed for the past few nights, and it's huge. Last night, I moved it into the living room and slept like a log. I think it has something to do with Feng Shui

I think I'm going to stay away from YnM for a while... -_-;;

Ohhh, I'm sooooo hungry...

Hey, ever notice how some of the shikigamis have really cool armor? Suzaku has this armor thing around her wings. Sugoi~~!!



Tuesday, July 3, 2001 09:07 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Today, as my mom and I were driving home, we got into a car accident. We were driving through a parking lot and a car backed into us. It damaged the back passenger seat on the right, but that's it. It was the first time I've ever been in a car accident. After we were hit, I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt accompanied by a wave of nausea, as if I had committed some heinous crime, even though I wasn't the one driving. I certainly didn't have to answer to my mom about wrecking the car, because she was the one driving and it wasn't our fault in the first place. In fact, I usually wouldn't have worried about it, since it wasn't my car, but it just felt like I had committed a sin. I wasn't scared or anything, but for the first 10 minutes or so, as I was left alone while my mother went to talk to the other driver, the sense of guilt, or evil, increased and I suddenly felt as if I was committing an evil just by being alive. Well, not something as drastic as that ^_^, but it felt like I was doing something wrong by being there at that moment in time. I don't think I'm in shock or anything, because then I wouldn't be able to write this. I still feel a bit nauseous, but I think I'll be fine. It's just that feeling that makes me wary of myself. It's like Tsuzuki's guilt for being alive, just on a lighter scale. After a while, I realized that I was feeling a little scared, not from the accident, but from the feeling I got, and I was very ashamed of myself for that. I cultured myself to be uncaring and somewhat devoid of emotion, but the feeling of guilt just increased when I realized what I was feeling.

I never wanted to learn how to drive anyway, and after this incident I found myself thinking that I'm never going to drive. Silly, rather, but I really prefer being chauffered than driving myself. ^_^ While my mom talked to the other driver, called the insurance company, calmed her nerves, etc., I just felt like getting home as soon as possible and going to bed. I did wake up at a godawful hour this morning.

The sense of guilt for being alive... it's exactly what Tsuzuki feels all the time, and I never thought I'd feel that. Well, today I got a taste of what it was like, and now Tsuzuki has my undying respect for living through that fear every moment of his life.

The sun was a ball of fire as it sank over the western horizon... a near-full moon half-shrouded by fog... blood-stained clouds torn across a darkening sky... that was the scenery as we drove home... it didn't do much to lighten my mood.

As I was thinking about the accident and what it felt like, I made the mistake of comparing the slight jolt of the car as it was hit to the bump of a rollercoaster... I'll never be able to enjoy amusement parks ever again. ^_^; And you know what? I'm supposed to go to an amusement park this Friday with my friend... yep, big mistake... I shouldn't let my mind get away from me like that.

I'm going to talk to someone now about what happened. Get a professional opinion from someone with experience. ^_^;; Ka-chan, don't tell this to anyone, okay? I was just rambling... I certainly don't need anyone to know about this, especially my parents.

"The Descendents of Darkness wander in the night..." Muraki calls himself and Tsuzuki the descendents of darkness. I officially rank myself the same level as them... Oh sure, I don't have a hideous past, but, well, you know... I'm not so worried about what happened to me physically than what happened to me mentally (I personally don't really care what happens to my body, besides, it's healthy enough...). I don't think I can ever forget what it feels like to want to die just because it felt evil to live. No, not quite evil, more like dirty and impure, like having committed something not even God can forgive (mind you, I *don't* believe in God!). I've never felt such terror and dread as I experience that sense, and I have a strange feeling that it'll return to haunt me. I even think that I'll feel that sense of guilt again.

Haha, look at me, being all serious...

But, now, I *am* a descendant of darkness.



Tuesday, July 3, 2001 05:49 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz.... *Smack*! zzzz... wha..? Wha's happening? Who hit me? Aghhhhhhhh!! K's pointing a gun at my head!! Matte, what's that you're saying? K? You want me to write a fic?? With you and... WHO?!?!?! SAKANO??!!!

Ok, now that was just plain weird. See what happens when I'm bored and my brain decides to fly to Weird Imagination Land? Oh, well, that idea's been running through my head for a long time anyway. I mean, K did try to stop Sakano from attempted resignation and suicide (Sakano does that a lot, huh? Poor him, it's all because he's BAD LUCK's producer, it's very stressful when you're working with someone like Shuuichi...). Maybe I'll put it down on paper one day after I buy the Gravitation books.



Tuesday, July 3, 2001 05:34 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

If Ka-chan doesn't blog soon, I'm afraid I'm gonna start bad-mouthing her out of anger... *sweatdrops*



Tuesday, July 3, 2001 05:25 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I wonder why Ka-chan hasn't blogged yet... it's kinda too quiet around here without her updates. Stupid adorable little brothers who break computers while their Oneechan is off in Ohio...



Tuesday, July 3, 2001 05:10 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I'm bored. I was reading stuff from fanfiction.net, but there aren't that many good ones. Guess which anime had the most fics. Digimon. More than ten thousand. A lot of the other stuff didn't even come close. there were a few with more than a thousand, but none were as high as Digimon. Sheesh, is it really that popular? Or is it just easy to write fics for it? Gotta go find some nice YnM pics. I updated some stuff on K&K today, nothing much, just some more fics I didn't have a chance to put up. Next time: translations!



Monday, July 2, 2001 09:20 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Sugoi!! Ka-chan's back from Ohio (though I notice she hasn't blogged at all)! Yay!! I got so depressed while she was gone that I started a Fushigi Yuugi fic! I'm so proud of myself. I've already posted the first 4 parts on K & K collective, and when I get the chance I'll post the rest of what I have written up online. I'm dedicating that fic to her. I still haven't titled it yet, though... I dunno know if she'll like it or not... I don't know her taste in fanfics.

Wait, now that she's back, will my inspiration last? Ka-chan! Go on another trip!

Yuck! I was watching Titantic today (don't ask me why, I'm just an idiot with spare time on my hands) and I got the idea to write a crossover with Titantic and FY. Now, I know some people have already done this before, but mine's gonna be different and not a copy of theirs.

Now, a little bit of something that touched my heart: Yesterday, someone gave me a flower based on a promise that person made me last year, it made me feel appreciated. I don't think I've had such a surprise before, and I probably never will. It was a rare experience. *Kei-chan's maniac self kicks in and begins to think how she can write FY fics based on that experience, true self wacks maniac on the head, "Go away and leave this piece of fluff alone!"* Er... okay then... putting that aside...

Sheesh, what's with me? Everytime I blog, I get a headache! Could this be chronic? *Gasp* Ka-chan! If you hadn't made me get a blog... *dodges flying objects thrown at her* Gomen, gomen, just kidding, just kidding!

Arghh!! My evil perverted laugh (cached: Mwahahahaha!!) has been replaced with a evil sneaky conniving laugh! (Hee hee hee...) It's almost like Tomo's laugh!! *pause* Wait, that's a good thing... I love Tomo, so I guess that's okay...

Oh, back to that FY fic I was talking about earlier, I'm trying to decide whether I should write Soi with Nakago, or Tomo with Nakago... I want all three to be happy in this fic, and I will NOT write a threesome... *shudder* That's just too horrifying to imagine... On the other hand, Hikaru, Lantis, and Eagle don't seem too bad... Lantis and Eagle are like both Hikaru's boyfriends or something. There's definitely attraction between Lantis and Hikaru, and there's definitely a past between Lantis and Eagle, and Eagle and Hikaru are both alike, not to mention they've met and seems to be fasinated with each other... ACKK!! Get it outta my head, get it outta my head!!

I started reading Dracula last week. It wasn't my choice, I had to do it for class. It's... weird... you know how vampires are supposed to be really romantic and all, but the original Count Dracula just seems like a real nauseating monster to me... *laughs* then again, I've only read 4 chapters so far...

Ok, I'm running out of things to say, so I'll probably blog in tomorrow. Ja ne!



Thursday, June 28, 2001 01:11 a.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

*shudder* I just read the mostly ungodly, horrific, disgustingly crazy Tomo + Nakago fic ever! Such horrors I have never seen... It was a Sleeping Beauty parody, staring Tomo as the prince and Nakago as the princess... Guess who were the three fairies...er... Magical Winged Guardians? The three Boshis, Suboshi, Amiboshi, and Miboshi. Soi was the wicked fairy. Such a sickening fic! I totally support Tomo/Nakago (of course, I also support Soi/Nakago...*sweatdrops*), but those fan authors were going just a bit too far...

I'm not supposed to be up this late...



Tuesday, June 26, 2001 08:36 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

I have such a headache... This is good practice for when I become an alcoholic when I grow up. I'll be so good at ignoring hangovers.

Well, anyway, yesterday I went to the first day of summer school (yay... not...), saw somebody I didn't really want to see, got my homework assignments, came home, and did half of the homework. I finished the other half today, and tomorrow I have to go meet with the teachers for half an hour each. Thank god I signed up for the Independent Studies program, I only have to see the teachers once a week. Stupid school. My mom's threatening to block my internet connection. She says I'm online too much. So now, I guess I have to be nocturnal again, just like last summer. It's the only time when I get privacy. I just hope I don't get addicted to fanfics again... I'm too tired and ill to argue with Ka-chan, so whatever she's saying over her blog, I'll ignore for now. But I'll get my revenge later when I feel more hyper. Ka-chan's inviting me to her birthday party. She won't know that she's inviting a fox into the chicken house *evil laugh* ahem... anyway, ugh... when I first watched Gravitation, I thought it was great, but I remembered today that 5 hours after that, I had the overwhelming urge to be sick. Hm... does that mean I don't have an iron-cast stomach like I think I do? Especially when it comes to shonen ai? Er... hope not...

Wait, did Ka-chan say chain saw? Wahahahaha, she's JASON!! Hey, she kicked Hisoka away! Ka-chan...!! *cough cough* Ugh.... I can't fight today... too sick to yell... It's okay, Hisoka, don't cry, I want your empathy even if Ka-chan doesn't...

*coughing* Ugh, I can't defend Gravitation against Ka-chan today, but I don't think it's that yaoi-filled... Damn this illness, I can't even think straight anymore... Yapari, I passed my pervertedness to Ka-chan that weekend. Now, she's even nosebleeding over doujinshi... Oh, my pervertedness, where hast thou gone?!

Ka-chan's so mean over the internet, usually she's such a wimp... Ack! Sorry, Ka-chan, that slipped out, didn't it? Gomen nasai, gomen nasai (where has my pride gone?) *repeated bowing* Oh no, when she gets back from Ohio, she's personally gonna drive over to my house and beat me up.. no, worse, she's gonna,.. hell, I don't even know what she's gonna do... (Hell!! Where HAS my pride gone?!! I'm so sick I can't even think straight!! I'm apologizing to Ka-chan? No!! Now I'll never live it down!! j/k)

Ok, I really need to explain the Flare Arm thingy that Ka-chan keeps posting: it's an inside joke between the two of us. When I was at her house, I was sitting next to her, leaning my hand on the carpet, and suddenly I felt as if my right arm dislocated or something, and I said that out loud. Ka-chan started laughing, saying that it reminded her of those robots that shoots out arm rockets, therefore FLARE ARM!!! I don't even know where that came from...

ARGHHHH!!! I can't get any work done!! I forced myself to finish homework today, but I really need to do translations, write anime summaries (for YnM, YYH, GW, and all those other wonderful anime pages I'll have on K&K Collective), character profiles, get nice pics for the galleries, and a whole bunch of other stuff, but mostly translations. Those translations are going to be the death of me. Kauru, stop bugging me about KKJ translations! I can't do any of it until you gimme the names of everyone in the first two volumes. I only know Maron, Miyako, Access, Fin, and Chiaki, every other name I need, including last names, so when you get back from Ohio, go through your books and email me the names. Until then, STOP ASKING!! See what happens when I'm sick and very pissed? Gomen for yelling, I'll just go sit in my corner and sulk and be sick... Why won't Lani email me?!! Is she dead? Don't let her be dead! And Anjiloe too!

I'm sooooo sick...



Saturday, June 23, 2001 07:26 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Wai~! Ka-chan finally finished my blog layout! Yata! Hugs and kisses, Ka-chan! It looks wonderful! *dreamy sigh* so beautiful! Don't worry about the bugs and the extra links section... Yata!! I can't tell you how happy I am. There are no words to described my ecstasy!

Well, today was certainly a waste of time. I had an art lesson and a music lesson. Both not as productive as I would have liked. But oh well, at least I don't have to worry about it for another week. ^_^

I was DLing Gravitation ep. 4 last night, using my Netzero connection (btw, Netzero sucks hell, don't ever use it), I had 87% after 2 hours, and Netzero disconnected me! And that Ep. didn't use RealPlayer DL either, so I couldn't resume! I was so mad! And then my mom told me to go to bed, so I couldn't start over! I even had to exit my AIM, where I was talking with a friend! The injustice of parents and stupid internet connections that try to kick you off. Now I have to start all over. At least I already have the first 3 eps. Haha, Gravitation is so funny (though with serious shonen ai content, but I don't mind that). Oh well, my mom's staying with a friend tonight, and I wish I could say that I was staying home alone, but I'm not. I have to go stay with my dad. :P At least he has a faster computer connection. La dee da dee da! I love the song "Eden" so much! "Eden", "Eden" I love you. *laugh* there's this one part in YnM where Watari and Tsuzuki are sitting in front of this delicious looking crab dinner, and Watari is singing, "Crabby, Crabby, I love you~!". I think it was vol. 4 first story.

Ka-chan's going away for a few days, I wonder if she can use her computer in Ohio...? Hopefully, cos blog's no fun without her challenging me to do stuff. Hey Ka-chan, you haven't given me the addies to the anime quizzes yet!

I think that soon, I can put up some of my Yu Yu Hakusho and Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne translations. Ka-chan has the first two volumes of my YnM books, so I can't start translating them yet. ;_; I really want to though. I found this great site with YnM translations (I think it was theria.net?) but I'd rather do it on my own. I love translating stuff, maybe I can be a translator when I grow up? Nah, probably not. I'm not fluent enough in Chinese.



Friday, June 22, 2001 01:24 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Hey, wait, does Hisoka ever go chibi? Well, some scenes with him surprised are close enough, I guess. I realized the other day that no one has ever seen Hisoka smile. I guess that Matsushita-sensei is saving that precious smile for some future issue. Either that, or she can't draw a good picture of him smiling and thus gave up. *sweatdrops* I know how hard it is to try to get that perfect look on whatever you're drawing and the frustration when it just doesn't come out the way you want it. Don't give up, Matsushita-sensei, you can do it! We're eagerly awaiting the result of your efforts!.

Er.. I'm way too happy for my own good. I can't exactly sink into a depression right now anyway. But I wish I could! Why? I must be crazy to want to be sad, but I write the best fics and come up with the best stuff when I'm depressed and I NEED that melancoly inspiration!!! Goddammit!! Why can't people go to other people for comfort, I'm not a damn shrink! Stop telling me all your problems! It's not as if I can help you anyway! Your life is your life, and no way anyone can have a say in it. When people have problems, they should just think it through themselves, not go for counseling!

ok, the cool clear headed self in me is whacking the insane self upside the head. Collected-Self: sorry, the maniac sneaks out sometimes and wrecks havoc up the lucid world. Manic-self: I just wanna vent my anger!! Revenge on those who oppose me! *trys to jump lucidity from behind* Ha, got ya now--whoa! *is send flying by lucid-self* Itai, I didn't know she did martial arts... *Lucid-self dusts herself off* I'm a black belt in karate, thank you very much. Child-self: Anou... stop fighting, please, Kei-chan just wants peace and quiet... True-self: EVERYONE SHUT UP AND GO BACK TO YOUR CORNER!!

*sweatdrops* From now on, whenever I'm having an inner struggle (different sides of me fighting for control), I'll refer to them by stuff like "maniac-self" (angry, pissed, unthinking, you get the drift), "whinny self" (says it all, doesn't it?), "lucid self" (cool, collected, calm, clear-headed, think Hisoka ^_^), "child -self" (the side of me that doesn't want to fight and wants everyone to be happy), "true-self"(er... how should I explain this, it's the self that tells every thing else to shut up and it's the self that surfaces naturally, not triggered by something else), and much more! Ok, Kei-chan needs to see a shrink...



Thursday, June 21, 2001 11:57 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Hey!! No fair!! Ka-chan stole my stuff! Ka-chan, go copy your own lyrics! You've got the ep.s too!

Well, anyway, I watched Evolution, I watch ep. 3 of Yami no Matsuei. They were both good, except of course, YnM was infinitely better. ^-^ I did so much work today. I started translating YnM vol. 3, since Ka-chan has vol. 1 and 2. I didn't get very far though... like about 7 pages... Oh well, I also wrote a You Know You've Had Too Much YnM When... List, as well as a Things YnM Characters Would Never Say List, also a short Things FY Characters Would Never Say List. I also updated my intro to my YnM page, as well as write character profiles for YnM characters. I just need to load them on to my pages... Ahhh, I feel good about myself today! I also got some of my Petshop of Horrors translations back from my friend today, so I'll probably type them up myself sometime next week. I can't rant enough about how much I love YnM and its music. So, I won't. I hope I can get to writing fanfiction soon. Oh yeah, I really need to finish that GW one... I've been working on it since last year... *sweatdrops* My origianl wish was to finish it and then post it up on my page, but Ka-chan said that I should just put it up in chapters, so now I gotta make a GW page, add some pics, add some links, and throw the what I have of the GW fic on there. It'll be hasty, but at least it'll be something. Did I mention that I'm currently DLing ep. 4 of YnM right now? Well, I'm gonna start on Gravitation tomorrow. I wish those people would hurry up and sub the ep. faster. But at least it's better than nothing. I should remember to email them and thank them for their hard work. Everyone deserves to feel they're appreciated. ^_^

Maybe I should make this blog my main updates page for K&K Collective... then I won't have to update twice.



Thursday, June 21, 2001 10:44 a.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

So bored... I'm DLing YnM ep. 3 right now, but it'll take me a while... I'm gonna see Evolution today. I hope it's as good as it looks. I also wanna see Dr.2, Final Fantasy, Tomb Raider, Shrek, and Legally Blond. Oh, and also What's the Worst That Can Happen, too, but I heard it was bad... oh well, I'll try it anyway.

*Singing "Eden"* I love that song! And the lyrics too! "In the depths of damp eyes, the blue moon silently falls to pieces. The bright world vanishes into darkness without a sound. Running around in darkness during the countdown, approaching the new era. Injured black wings, in the light of the moon, glimmer beautifully as they soar. A crimson kiss has discovered its way into the depths of my soul... and into my dream..." So beautiful! I wish I could write like that. "Injured black wings..." indeed. Injured black wings of the soul, I wonder? I wish there were more songs out by To Destination. The lead singer's voice is so beautiful in that haunting/wailing tune. I love songs like that (:P I'm so sick of regular pop).

Yata! Ka-chan says that she'll finish my blob layout today!! *sprouts doggy ears and tail(just like Tsuzuki)* Is it up yet? Is it up yet? *reverts back to usual quiet catself* Ahem... I swear, I think I have multiple personalities or something... Well, I think of myself as a quiet mysterious (think female counterpart of Hisoka...), but sometimes the Tsuzuki inside of me pops out without warning... *trails off* Well, anyway, maybe that's just more proof that Hisoka and Tsuzuki are close in heart, ne? Ne? Ne? Ok, Kei-chan, you're going crazy... with boredom. Oh, hey, I could work on the K & K Collective. Oi, Ka-chan, you better have already loaded up the YnM pics!



Wednesday, June 20, 2001 09:50 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Ugh... I have such a headache... I wanted to work on some manga translations, but my old computer (where I keep some of my typed translations) kept on screwing stuff up and I had to restart it to retrieve a document I needed. I was gonna work on my new computer, but I couldn't find my Petshop of Horrors translations~~!! Then I realized that one of my friends had it when she put the translations up on her site. I think it's http://www.geocities.com/rare_birds or something like that... Oh well, it wasn't typed anyway but she did it for me. Maybe I should just go to that site and copy the document... it'd save me a lot of trouble. I still haven't finished the first book of Petshop of Horrors, and I still haven't finished the first book of Yu Yu Hakusho, and I still have to do Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne translations... I'm also thinking of starting on Yami no Matsuei translations... I'm so screwed... Even with the summer, I'm still not gonna finish everything. I should just concentrate on finishing Petshop of Horrors first book, then finish typing up the first book translations for Yu Yu Hakusho, then worry about KKJ... I can start YnM later. Arghhhh!! Headache!! I can't stand it anymore!! And I can't find my Advil... ;_;



Wednesday, June 20, 2001 06:26 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Ka-chan! I accept your challenge! Choose your weapon!!*whips out katana* You'll never defeat me! Hisoka's all mine!! Mwahahahahaha!!!

Ka-chan's right, I am the perverted one of the two of us. Maybe my blog name should be "Innocent Masquerade"... Oi, where does Ka-chan find all those anime match tests anyway? But I got Aya from Weiss, so there! *sticks out tongue* I probably WILL get Noin from KKJ as a match, too, so watch out Ka-chan! But gimme the site addy first...

Waii~~~ Sugoi~~ I finally DLed RealPlayer and watched the first episode of YnM. It's so good! I love the opening theme!! Especially at the beginning where the camera rushes into Ju-Oh-Cho, and zooms into Tsuzuki's beautiful violet eyes *dreamy sigh* and the scene in the opening where he summons a shikigami... I wanna shikigami! I want Byakko, Suzaku, Seiryuu, and even Touda too!! I also want Kurikara, *sweatdrops* but he's kinda dangerous... *bounces right back up* but that just makes him all the more precious!! Touda's really cool in human form, and Byakko's just adorable! Yami no Matsuei... Descendants of Darkness... What a beautiful name...

Well, anyway, I worked today, kinda boring, but at least I get money (maybe I was right to get Tatsumi in the YnM love test... ha, but I got Hisoka second, so it makes up for everything). But after that, I did nothing except watch TV and DL stuff from online. What a wonderful feeling it is to be free of school! However, I keep on feeling as if I'm suppose to go to school tomorrow, though... Oh well, no use worrying about it. After I DL all the Yami no Matsuei ep. available, I'm gonna get Gravitation too! I like that series, but I still have to find the manga and buy it. Yata!! 85% of ep.2 of YnM done!! My comp is so slow... Ka-chan, you have no idea how lucky you are to have DSL... I wanna DSL too!!



Tuesday, June 19, 2001 06:26 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

*sobs* Wahhhh~~!! I just read vols 6, 7, and 8 of Yami no Matsuei (I bought more today) and Tsuzuki's story is so sad!! And sometimes I really hate Tatsumi!! He's so mean to Tsuzuki and everyone else. What a miser!! Well, anyway I think Hisoka and Tsuzuki make the best of couples! They're so cute together! I mean, look at the picture at the top of this page!! Enough said! No, wait, I've got more proof! In vol 3, Hisoka runs into Tsuzuki's arms, and in vol 8, when Tsuzuki tries to kill himself, Hisoka jumps into his arms and says that if he does, then he's going with him, because he can't imagine life without Tsuzuki. Isn't that sweet?! I just love stories like this. *sigh* I swear, I'm obsessed with death and shinigamis or something. The name of this blog proves it. Oh, and Ka-chan, Hisoka's mine, you can't glomp him! *glare* and I don't even like Yuma and Saya, they're always bothering Hisoka. They give me the creeps (not the same kind as Muraki, though). Hisoka is the coolest, and Tsuzuki is the second coolest. Watari's cute too. I can't believe he tried to make sex-changing potion. Wahahaha, that was so funny when he and Tsuzuki turned into little kids, makes you want to glomp them even more! And then when they tried to turn back, they turned invisible instead! *clutching stomach in laughter* I wish I could get the manga faster... I don't wanna order from my bookstore... Arghh!! Why can't Matsushita Yoko draw faster!! Ok, I'm going insane... I just wish that I'd found this series when it was completed, so I wouldn't have to wait for it to finish... Byakko is so cute in human form (I'm talking about the YnM one, but the FY one's cute too), and he must have scared the hell out of Hisoka when he jumped from behind. Arghh!! I'm so frustrated with everything. Oh, I just visited Ka-chan's blog... she's getting weirder and weirder every day... I think over the weekend I passed my pervertedness onto her... ok gotta go bye! ^_^



Monday, June 18, 2001 10:00 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I can't stand little kids!!! I'm never gonna have kids ever!!!

Ok, now that I have that outta the way, I'm feeling a lot better now. I just watched the entire Fushigi Yuugi series over the weekend. I know people say that the series isn't all that good but the characters are fun to play with, and I do agree with the part about the characters, but I thought that the series was pretty good. Well, I'm really glad that I saw the entire series (I got to see Tasuki and Chichiri!! ^=^), but too bad I can't own it. When I got home last night from Ka-chan's house, I looked at our combined site, and I realized that the pages that we made at her house were too hard to see on a computer with a lower resolution than Ka-chan's computer, so I had to move around a whole bunch of stuff. but finally everything looks ok. Whew!

I saw this Yami no Matsuei Illustration book on Yesasia.com for $35.99 or something like that, but when I clicked on it to take a closer look, the price changed to $8.91, weird, isn'tit? I wish I could buy it, but I don't have a credit card and my mom won't buy it for me. *upset* I really want that art book!! It's so hard to find the manga and the music from the anime as it is... Well, to end the entry on a happier note, I hope to buy Yami no Matsuei's vol. 5 and 6 tomorrow. Yeah!!



Sunday, June 17, 2001 09:04 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Wai~~!!! Look at this awesome layout Ka-chan helped me make!! Sugoi indeed! *starry eyed* look at how wonderful Tsuzuki and Hisoka look together!! Look at how wonderful the pictures blend together!! Look at how wonderful everything looks right now!! Well, I'm still waiting for Ka-chan to load up the final part, but after that, this page'll look even better!! I'm so damn happy!! *sinking back into depression* but my bliss isn't gonna last long, I just know it...

Well, anyway I'm off to make money tomorrow, wish me luck!



Saturday, June 16, 2001 02:02 p.m. Kei-chan glomped chibi Hisoka & chibi Tsuzuki happily and cried, "Sugoi~~~!!"

Yeah, my very own blog! Ka-chan made me get one.

 


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