"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru
Random Thoughts: we are all buckets of grief, and filled to brimming - from some book
Tuesday, June 4, 2002
Waii~~ Such a horrible day today! My luck didn't let up until a few hours ago, when I actually felt like I was accomplishing some homework.
How adorable! Senri can make people talk just by staring quietly at the back of their heads! I'm so glad Toriyama's World finally translated another chapter of +Anima.
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 11:14 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Brahms String Quartet #1 in C minor, opus 51
Random Thoughts: Math is useful, but a waste of my time.
Friday, May 31, 2002
Ya know, advanced math is nothing more than a perfect proof of humanity's obession with itself and its ability to push at everything to its limits. I mean, sure, all this stuff is wonderfully fascinating *rolls eyes* but isn't it just another example of the old "because I CAN"? (like the hero being kicked around and asking the villain why he does what he does so he can stall for time and regain his strength, and the villain smiles evilly and replies "Because I CAN.") What's the point proving to oneself that one can accomplish some random aspect of the insanity known as mathematics? Do people have a superiority complex or something? Of course they do. Humans worry away at mathematics like a hangnail. The harder they probe, the more it hurts (as in it's hurting my brain right now). I really really don't see how I'd ever need math anaylsisin my life. I'm not out to become the world's most brilliant engineer, after all. I'm happy with counting my apples and oranges, thank you very much. God, and to think next year I'll have to take CALCULUS! When I'm doing my math homework it's like "Ooooh I seeeee..." or "Wow, I'd never have thought of THAT!" and then I turn around and it all takes a flying leap out of my head. There's just no place in it for that kind of mathematical analysis. And people get awards for stuff like proving if they shuffle a deck of cards a certain number of times, the order of the cards turns out the exact same as when they first started shuffling. Sheesh. What's the use of that? No, wait, lemme guess. "Because now we know it's POSSIBLE." Ugh. It makes me sick. Now go read my quote at the top of the entry. "L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux". The important things are invisible to the eye. Okay, so maybe a lot of math is abstract and IS invisible to the eye, but that's not the point.
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 12:11 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: You Get to Burning - Martian Successor Nadesico op
Random Thoughts: My conscience is broke, so now I can't get any homework done.
Wednesday, May 29, 2002
Waaaahhh, my mommy is in the hospital! >.< Why why why?! Why isn't "God" taking care of her?? Why would Chi-Gon be pagan and evil? It helps! And why am I online when I should be rushing to finish my biology homework and writing an Enlish essay??!!
Well, the good news is that Mom's coming home soon, cos she only needed to be in the hospital today. Painkillers really help. I need a painkiller right now, for my perpetual headache.
I had to make an appointment the other day with the uh... the kind of doctors only women need to see after they hit 18, and I had to fill out an info chart thingy. One section was titled family diseases, where I had to check boxes next to the medical conditions my family members had in the past. When I finished, I looked it over and sweatdropped, cos about half of them were all checked... like, there was cancer, high blood pressure, diabetes, etc. Yeah, if any of this is hereditary, I'm going to die pretty young. *silently cheers* I'm quite sure high blood pressure is hereditary. both my grandpas had it, and so does my mom. Wooooo~~~ I'm going to dieeee~~ *cackle* I sure don't want to have diabetes, though. That would really suck. I wouldn't like to have to shoot myself everyday.
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 06:54 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Paradox - W-inds
Random Thoughts: Suki... dakara, suki...
Tuesday, May 28, 2002
1460!!!Yay! I can't believe I scored so well on the May 4th SAT I!! As far as I know, I've outscored Phyllis and Jonah, and pulled EVEN with Eugene! This means I'm just as smart as the self-proclaimed genius, if not smarter! Mwahahahaha! *does victory dance* I had to check my score online cos my mailbox was in the trash (long story... >_>), and at first I couldn't believe my eyes! Math - 710 (so low!) Verbal - 750 (so high!) total:1460 *gloats like hell* Nyanya, Eugene. Bet that does wonders for your pride.
On a sadder note, my mom's sick, and she's in a lot of pain, and I'm at my wit's end trying to take care of her... @_@ ooohhhh, can feel another headache coming on...
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 09:03 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: {none}
Random Thoughts: I'm such an idiot...
Friday, May 24, 2002
Ack~~!! Gomen, gomen Vinita-chan! I was online but I got caught between dling stuff, blogging, and wolfing down my dinner, and I forgot to sign onto to AIM... >_< So sorry... and just now you weren't on, so I'm afraid I might have missed you. I wish I could stay longer and wait for you, but... >_< mom's coming home soon... and... yeah... you know, parent looking over shoulder...
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 09:57 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Kujira - Core of Soul
Random Thoughts: I am only lazy when I can afford to be.
Friday, May 24, 2002
Wai~ Shaman King has been updated too! I can't believe how fast some of these go up! (I can't even translate a chapter that fast, and people are replacing foreign languages with English text in less time!)
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 09:24 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Kujira - Core of Soul
Random Thoughts: Forgive me Father, for I have sinned... sorry, just had to say that...
Friday, May 24, 2002
Wow, I was mentally going over the list of things that I have to do before school ends, and there are so many! =_=; And there's only about two more weeks of school left. I wonder how Ka-chan's doing. She hasn't posted anything of academic importance on her blog lately. So, anyway, I have a rehearsal tomorrow at Ben's house, because Gene, Jonah, and Phyllis says our piece is too out of tune. I think they've been thinking it's my fault up to now, but my part is in the lower octaves, so I had no problems (not to mention I never make any mistakes when it comes to intonation). There's no way to dodge that rehearsal tomorrow, not that I'd actually want to. It's so fun playing Brahms!! I just wish Ben wouldn't make us play so slowly. I realize it's easier to identify problems that way, but still...~~ There's a rehearsal on Sunday too (oh bother~), because we are really out of tune when we play together. Okay, I'm being really nice by saying this (seeing as they've been thinking it's all my fault up till now, even though it wasn't), but I don't think it's acutally anyone's fault. It's just so hard to fit all the notes together. Another thing is that Brahms quartets are so damn hard! Another event is that we might be playing for the Senior Awards Ceremony. Ms. Bled asked us if we wanted to perform for that, and since none of us had any problems with it, I think we're doing it. It'll be good practice for the actual concert, we can test our audience's reactions. I'm looking forward to that. Yet another performance is the Dance Productions performances taking place on June 1st and 2nd. Originally, members of the orchestra were to sign up to accompany the dancers in the actual performance, and I wanted to do it, but I couldn't make the lunch time meeting for info because my stupid badminton coach chose that day to have a badminton meeting (of all the days!), and afterwards I just didn't get a chance. (Coach had another meeting on the day of the second meeting! What rotten luck!) But apparently Gene, Jonah, and Phyllis had signed up for it, and they were to perform this piece called Eleanor Rigby for one of the dances. I listen to them talk about it before rehearsal sometimes, and it had seemed for a while that they couldn't find a part for the cello, so Jonah would have to play the piano, then it seemed that Gene might not be able to play at all, because the viola part didn't fit in with the piano/violin duet! So, they called up this guy Rem (sp?), who apparently could always find music, and they got the complete string quartet today, and Phyllis asked me if I could do the second violin part. *rolls eyes* talk about last minute. But still, I think it'll be fun (a live accompaniment!), and I'll get a special project for credit in orchestra. Then there's the concert on June 7th. So many things to do! >_< and it's just in music! Then I have a biology project I haven't started on, a stat project I haven't even thought about, and a stat test I haven't studied for! Actually, I haven't even read the chapter or done the homework for it... I'm in deep doo. But with this memorial weekend, I ought to be able to catch up. Unless I get caught up in manga again, which seems far more likely... but I've managed to keep myself away from Kingstone for a while, even though I really want to buy TCP. And it's not like I have a lot of money right now anyway. *sigh* But I so want to read Zel/Lina fics right now... >.< I'm not exactly helping myself by continuously running to Toriyama's World to see if they've updated on either Hikaru no Go, +Anima, or Yaiba. Speaking of which, they've added yet another chapter of HnG, three chapters of Yaiba, and a chapter of +Anima since I last checked! XD XD XD They seem to be going fast on Yaiba, relatively fast on HnG, and snail slow on +Anima. >_< And I really can't wait till I start working again so I can get my own membership at Movie Image. They have so much anime there!! XD XD I can't even decide which to watch! Too bad they don't have any oldies there like Saint Saiya, or Yoroiden Samurai Trooopers, or Yu Yu Hakusho, or even Slam Dunk.
After all of that, regular school work and tests included, I also somehow got roped into doing volunteer work for the library. Not that it's a bad thing, but I was recruited by the Friends of the Library (older adults and such) to clerk for the store they have inside of the library, selling old books and stuff. I guess they decided that after I filled in for Mom once, cos she had to go to the doctors, but now I have my own two hours of sitting and doing nothing (manning the front desk in the tiny store, really, but it's still absolutely nothing). So that's kinda 2 hours off my Saturday, but I told them I couldn't start until after schol ended, because I hope by then I can switch my (paying) work to weekdays and leave my weekends free. -_-; So much to do... Hm... what else? Oh yeah, my boss (the one that pays me...) had a ticket for a tour group to Oregon, and since her daughter couldn't go at the last minute, she wanted to invite me along, but my mom rejected for me because she thought I needed to study for the SAT IIs (which I do), so she asked if my mom wanted to go. My mom said sure, because she was saying she needed an answer right that moment, but when she came home, she wasn't so sure she wanted to go, because she wasn't sure if I'd study and behave if I were home alone. I said I would and shooed her into going. So now she's going and leaving me home alone for 2 and 1/2 days. ^_^ Victory!! XD XD Sherry also asked me to look after her cats while she was away for the weekend, and she even considered making me stay at her house while she was away, to make the letting-the-nonhousecat-outside process easier, but in the end we shot that idea down. My mom keeps worrying that an earthquake will occur while she's away and I'll get hurt. Funny how whenever she has to go somewhere for a while, it's always earthquakes she worrys about. There are worse things in the world than earthquakes, after all...
Nnggnnn, if I don't get off soon, Mom will come home from bible study and yell at me and decided not to go on that trip at last minute, just to stay home and watch me to make sure I study... She worrys so much! It's not like I'll succumb to the sins and procrastinate (sloth is a sin, after all). I'm not weak-willed as she thinks I am. I've told her many times. I'm only lazy when I can afford to be. I can be a genius if I put my mind to it. Oh yeah, another thing, she worrys that I'll starve if she leaves me alone. I told her I could cook, and she said, "What, you?!" Pssh, cooking is easy, I just don't do it usually, that's all. Sloth... indeed...
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 08:39 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Infinity - (Lost Universe op) Hayashibara Megumi
Random Thoughts: Ren scares me...
Wednesday, May 22, 2002
Go test.
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 05:58 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Lumen Lunae - Ueno Youko
Random Thoughts: If I had spare time, I'd waste it.
Wednesday, May 22, 2002
X_X Head hurts... mo... it sucks being sick. Ooh, ooh, I went to doctor yesterday, for annual checkup, and I grew about an inch!! XD XD I am now proudly 5'5 and 1/4! I didn't know I hadn't stopped growing! No wonder I was looking at the top of Maryam's head the other day and wondering why she seemed shorter... I thought she'd shrunk. >_>
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 05:40 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Tank! - Cowboy Bebop
Random Thoughts: "It's not that I'm anti-social... I just don't like you."
Wednesday, May 22, 2002
=_= I'm so tired. Well, I shouldn't be. I should be hungry. Except I just ate. So I guess I'll just be bored. Yeah, I can deal with being bored. I wrote up a French essay last night and today. It was hard, thinking in French and typing in French on the computer. But my teacher said I did a good job, so I can relax until next Tuesday night.
... ... ... I had something more interesting to say than that... but I forgot. Oh yeah, something's wrong with me: I reread Tokyo Babylon but it didn't throw me into a depression like I thought it might. Strange times I live in.
I've decided that the next manga I buy will be Tokyo Crazy Paradise. Or Lumen Lunae, if I can find it. I almost wish I wouldn't be able to find Lumen Lunae at Kingstone, because I really want to read TCP first. But I'm past broke for this month... ;_; I should go work this weekend, except I'm supposed to watch Sherry's cats for her. She proposed that I stay over the weekend, since I have to constantly let Renee in and out of the house, and keep Iris from leaving the house. I might even have to get up at 3 or 4 in the morning to let Renee out of the house. Tough. I don't think Mom will let me, though.
Anime I've seen in the past few weeks:
Master of Mosquiton: The Vampire (ep. 1-2)
Gasaraki (ep.1-4)
Lost Universe (ep.1-4)
Cowboy Bebop
Yu Yu Hakusho
Candidate For Goddess
Manga I've read in the past few weeks:
GTO
Yaiba
Blade of the Immortal
[A, A']
+Anima
Hikaru no Go
Shaman King
Tokyo Babylon
Random Opening/BG Musics:
Cowboy Bebop
Lumen Lunae
Sakura Taisen
Martian Successor Nadesico
Yoroiden Samurai Troopers
Gasaraki
Hikaru no Go
Lost Universe
Serial Experiment: Lain
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 05:22 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: {none}
Random Thoughts: If the future is based on the past, and the past leads to the future, what is present?
Friday, May 17, 2002
So... I'm really sick right now. I got up yesterday morning and had a kinda of sore throat. Ignored it, but it started hurting in earnest last night, when I was watching Survivor and CSI with Maryam (and watching Gasaraki over again during the commercials). I decided to go to bed early, and mom made me take my temperature. It wasn't so bad, only 98.6, but I was feeling woozy enough by then that I was convinced that my temperature was higher than that. I couldn't really breath in bed (partly because the cat was sitting on my chest, but I didn't have the heart, or the breath, to shoo her away, because she was purring so happily), and I woke up in extreme pain in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to sleep for quite a while. I woke up this morning with my throat dry as a a desert and feeling as gritty. Needless to say, it was also in extreme pain. I didn't feel up to drinking water, but I took some medicine and sat down to watch "Murder, She Wrote" the tv series. It was actually pretty good, with Angela Lansbury and all. Mom made an appointment with my doctor for this afternoon. Actually, she just pushed my next Wednesday appointment up. Dad'll take me there at 4. I'm at his place right now. He took me out to lunch at an Italian restaurant on Solano. The food was soooo good.
I can feel my eyelids falling over my eyes, so I'm going to stop now before my head falls off my shoulders.
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 01:50 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Gasaraki - Love Song, ed
Random Thoughts: Good things always cost a hell of a lot more.
Wednesday, May 15, 2002
Gasaraki is, in a word, amazing. It's the freshest thing in my mind, because I just watched the first four episodes of it this afternoon and already I'm in love with the plot, Yushiro, and Yushiro and Miharu's "destiny-be-entwined" relationship. The opening and ending are so incredible, they're a work of genius. The music is pretty good too, especially "Message #9", the opening theme, and "Love Song" the ending theme. The storyline and animation is so good it's even got me interested in that weird mask dancing thingy of Japanese tradition.
Ok, backing up. I studied all economics all weekend, got up really early on Monday, and took the AP test. I'm not sure how well I did. I'd rather not think about it, but I'm hoping I get at least a 3. Went home after the test, studied for biology, procrastinated a bit because I was already sick of all the AP tests, got back to studying around 12:00 at night, stayed up until around 2, set alarm clock for 5:40 so I could study again, but didn't really get up until 7. Which was just as well, since there wasn't anything else I could cram into my head and keep it there. Took test, did not so well on multiple choice, but well enough, I think to have gotten about 50% of it right. Absolutely loved the free response section. It was so easy!! Well, not according to a whole bunch of other people from the AP Bio class, but I guess maybe I just studied the right stuff... actually the problem that our opinions differed on was actually one that I remember quite well from homework, not from any actual studying I did on that subject. I'm optimistic about the AP Bio exam. Ok, came home, finished reading a book (The Chronoliths) that I was reading inbetween studying, felt tired and hopeless about the AP Government & Politics: United States exam, took a nap, slept like dead, woke up and reviewed a bit, indulged in a few distractions (like Friends, the Simpsons, etc.), reviewed some more, took three practice multiple choice exams and studied some key Supreme Court cases (this was all around 2 o'clock in the morning), went to bed, woke up again at 7, despite my having set the damn useless alarm clock for 5:40 again. Though I suppose I can't really blame anyone but myself. I was the one who hit the snooze, after all... Anyway, the multiple choice on the gov exam was almost EVERYTHING I'd studied last night! I felt so lucky! There were a few questions I wasn't sure on, but I think I got about 75% of the questions right. The free response I'm not so sure about, but I thought I did okay enough. I'm expecting at least a 3 on this... hopefully.
Anyway, back to Gasaraki, because I'm so hooked now. I rented it from Movie Image on Shattuck this afternoon, along with the first tape of Master of Mosquiton: Vampire, which I'd heard about a long time ago. It's supposed to be really funny, but I thought it was just ok. There were some grotesque parts, though, what with the weirdo Count Sangerine and his bulging eyes. *shudder* I'm not planning to rent anymore, for now, because it's not worth as much as Gasaraki. Ohhh oohh, Movie Image has Hunted Junction!! That series is hilarious! Jean had a few episodes she taped from someone a long time ago, but she taped over that since then. They also have Cardcaptor Sakura (original uncut and subtitled!), Record of Lodoss War (both original tv series and the Heroic Legends), Outlaw Star, several Gundam universe series, Vision of Escaflowne, and several others that I've forgotten in my excitement. And most of them are SUBTITLED!! XD XD XD *nearly shrieks in delight* Too bad Gasaraki is dubbed... I wish I could find the original somewhere.
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 09:24 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: {none}
Random Thoughts: {none}
Thursday, May 9, 2002
Oh... wonderful... I'm Tohma...
which member of nittle-grasper from gravitation are you? click here!
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 09:26 p.m. and died.
"L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux." - le renard, Le Petit Prince
Playlist: Every Heart - Boa
Random Thoughts: Inspiration comes hard when your brain is dead.
Wednesday, May 8, 2002
So, I archived, and I probably won't blog until my 3 AP tests are over with next week. Unless I get bad and sneak online when I'm supposed to be studying. Yeah, far more chance of that.
Keiko stared at the pile of AP review books in front of her at 05:36 p.m. and died.
